Another long period of time has passed since I last posted. Up to this point not a WHOLE lot has transpired like usual. A machine burned in January. Insurance said we can wrap this up in 2 to 4 days. 2 months later I was finally able to collect the insurance. A large chunk of it went to pay bills that had piled up because I was not able to get back to work the whole time. I should have had it insured for much more. Anyone who has been through something like this can relate it seems. I guess that's the biggest event I can think of at the moment.
My dad has been gone for over a year and a half. I have had many MANY dreams where we communicated but not just too clearly. This last one had him sitting in my living room with other family around and he wanted to see the latest credentials I earned through wild land firefighting. He looked a little younger than when he died as he does in all my dreams so far.We had a lot to do yet. I miss him a lot. Everyone does. He is the topic of much conversation I have even with people I have never met. My mom is doing better these days but the void is obvious. I wish Things were different for her but she is a strong woman, always is. Dad was gone a lot when I as growing up and mom did a lot of the raising. The three boys, of which I am the youngest, used to have a saying. "Mamma did raise three boys but she didn't raise mamma's boys." All three of us are "successful" though not rich. We all three have been married once and each with a great wife and kids. It looks like these marriages are once and for all too. I think that says a lot.
It is pitiful what has transpired over our nation. We are truly being destroyed by elements that can be found throughout space and time. It's like cancer. It's in us all but we sometimes live in a way that nurtures it and it grows into something that kills us. Our nation has done this. The enemies were there at it's founding. Because of people's tendency to nurture all the worst things about humanity we have become ill with a politically malignant cancer. I doubt if we can be saved and our time is limited unless there is a miracle.
I have many things to be thankful for. I am happy in general though that may not always be obvious. However, I just look around at this world in disgust especially with the powers that be. In any other capacity they would all simply be losers. I am trying to quit this logging thing I have been doing for 20+ years. It is hard work and noble too. Few men attempt it and of those few who do much fewer could ever say they had a career of it. I can say I had a logging career. It's still happening but hopefully not much longer. I mentioned the powers that be because I feel that has everything to do with the misery we hard working people feel now more than ever. They are the worst kind of criminals. People like to say the weak dollar is the reason. Well maybe a small part of it. It's the damn stock market. How else would it be possible for the ENTIRE forest industry in the USA to be hurting so much yet the big retailers are shining ever brighter? If you think full circle you will come to the same conclusion I have. It's disgusting.
There is a bit of good news though. This wild land firefighting thing couldn't be more up my alley if it was a dancing musical saw made of gold. That is the hardest work I have ever done and the greatest working experience I have ever had. My particular job is cutting down dangerous trees while some are actually on fire. I love it. Most of the wild land firefighters are great people. Those in my generation and older are the best. I have to admit though it's a great place to find young folks who really have it together. So much so that it will restore your faith that there is hope for the next generation. I really like the territory over there too. I'd move over there if it was feasible though I'd never want to give up this area. I reckon it is possible to find good things anywhere ya go. One of my boys has gotten involved in wild land firefighting too. We are expecting to go out west before too long. I really look forward to it. The only down side, which is a big one, is I miss the heck out of my family. Last year I was very ready to get back home to them when the fire season came to an end.
I'll try to get back on here soon.
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